The Best Feeling

On September 30 I saw my baby boy kick threw my shirt. I was at church when this happened. This was the best experience of my life. That moment I feel so deeply in love. When I first saw him on the ultrasound, I was in love. When I first heard his tiny little heartbeat, I feel even more in love. When I saw you again on the ultrasound and learned you were a boy, I cried so much, and feel even more in love. Then a week ago when I saw you kick me threw my stomach I feel even more in love. To make me so deeply in love with my son. I can't wait to meet him because I love him so much. Knowing that I am going to be a mother is seriously the best feeling I have ever felt. I want to share it with everyone.

January 29th

Why it seems that no matter what you have planned nothing really goes as planned. The guy I love so much is no longer with me, but we will always have a lasting impact on eachothers lives. I'm pregnant, 23 weeks pregnant. We were together up until the end of July.

I truly love him more than this world. Still to this day I am in love with him. It sucks that we broke up July 27, 2012. We found out I was pregnant on May 20th. I want things to be perfect for my son. In September we learned that he would be a boy. Its shocks me to see that things did not turn out how we planned.

Kaden Michael Allen is due January 29, 2013. This is the first time I have wrote his name like that. For I dont really know whos last name he is going to get but I like the way that sounds. You know I have never been so in love.