Oh my Life

I know that I need to just get over you. Every moment of my life I should not focus you but God. Why is it that I do love you? I love every time we talk, or hang out. :) You make me happy, you make me smile. What is there not to love? If I could just get the courage to tell you. I would no longer be having so many issues with life if I could do it. But I'm afraid of your rejection.. But everyone tells me its gonna be alright to just tell you. But they don't know that. But if you were to read this I would want you to know that I have loved you for several months now. Probably at least six months, and liked you for almost a year. mhm. But Its alright someday I'll be move on, or I'll tell you and you'll tell me the same.

Jerk

How is it that I can even think I still love you? Especially with the way you are treating me now. Its like you don't care. Its like you are five. Have you not grown up at all this summer? Do you think we should have a friendship? I just am so frustrated with the fact I could even love him. Ugh. Whats wrong with me? What makes me want you? I thought I was over you. I don't even want you in my life. But yet I love you?? I need some serious help. I don't need to love you. I need to not want anything to do with you. especially with you treating me like I am nothing. Nothing at all. Hiding in a box? Ignoring me? UGH. I just wish you were a wee bit more mature. Because you need it.