WIthout you life wouldn't be the same

As of December 16, 2012, Chris and I are back together. This came as a shock. I never thought I would be with the father of my child again. Kaden and I are so very happy we will have his daddy back in our lives. Its important to me that our family is together. But it is a wonderful surprise and pretty much the best Christmas present in the world.

December 7, Chris told me how he felt, as I previously wrote in here. Then he agreed he would come to our Christmas party here at the house. That was on December 16, at that time we spent a lot of time talking and then Chris told me he wanted me to be his girlfriend. He did ask me. That made me beyond happy. We talked a lot about why he did what he did. But honestly if you look at our futures now, us breaking up at the time was for the best and has benefited us so much. We have so many people who are willing to help us with our lives. Without our relationship ending at the point it did we wouldn't have any of this. Sadly crap happens a lot before things get better. But I am so very thankful things are better. December 26, I got to spend time with Chris's family again that meant the world to me. I love them to pieces. I cant wait for the new beginnings in our lives. :) I love my family.

I wonder if Ill ever know the answer

Around a week ago, I got an unexpected email from Chris, he asked if we could work on trying to make things work and get back together. The moment I read that text I began to cry, never in a million years did I expect that.. I NEVER thought we would get back together.

Now, we aren't officially yet, but we talk so much. And I love that. I get to see him tomorrow. These have been my dreams for Kaden. I want the best for my son. I know that I never saw it coming but knowing that Chris still feels like we could make it work changed my life. I love him and I love our son.